whether the sky blue or yellow
There are certain things I’d really need to get used to and fine tune to adapt to it because as cliche as this may sound, change is the only thing that’s constant.
CNY shopping has been fulfilling :) have like 6 paper bags of stuffs on the floor of my room right before the mirror. Short of one, and that’s my agnes b voyage! So yeah made up my mind on the colour and size, getting it on wednesday yay! :D there’s this love-hate struggle with me and CNY, don’t ask go figure!
I’ve been oversleeping for school idk what’s wrong with me. I haven’t been exactly hardworking, not mentioning consistent. Those days of mc really made me complacent fuck it. I’ve been procrastinating my retest, cos apparently I was on mc again when I was supposed to have it. What on earth am I doing srsly. Enough about school, srsly. I can’t wait to be over and done with A’level, period.
P.S sometimes I wonder if you’d ever forget my existence.
There’s too much of a change in my life lately, drastic change I’d say. And I’m still trying to get used to it. I shall not go into dwelling on self-pity because that’d be the last thing I’d ever wanna do.
xoxo
nicole.
P.S love-hate fullstop nowadays, it marks discontinuity.
carry on like you’re supposed to be
I dint see how it’d turn out this way. I hate being caught at this cross junction not knowing what’s the next step to take again :\ life can really play sucha big joke on you sometimes and manipulate you just like a pawn in a chess game.
It’s true that I’d wake up feeling all these are all bad a beautiful fairytale just that there isn’t a “happily ever after” this time round. I do hate myself for being self-centered and selfish at times but who isn’t like that?? Everyone wants the best for themselves BUT I know I shouldn’t.
*****
Don’t try to read between the lines for all that was mentioned above and don’t start passing judgment because you won’t and don’t know me well enough to do so.
Time for bed and school tmrw. I have to be focus srsly. Bye world.
P.S I hope life’s been treating you well while I’m on my roller coaster ride all over.
I’m left here with myself and I wonder what went wrong
Sometimes it’s not a good thing to be that persistent after all. Cos you’d end up finding out stuffs that you wouldn’t very much want to know. Or is it time I pull outta this?
what I don’t know can’t hurt me, no?
I don’t know what’s going on lately. Especially things at home with my parents. They’ve been so sensitive to every lil details, even the slightest issue. I don’t get it srsly. No idea what’s wrong. Things are supposed to turn for the better when school starts but I was apparently proven wrong. Last night was another dramamama with both mom and dad and that was it.
Think however you like I’m not bothering about their comments anymore since it doesn’t seem to get through them. Defiant? Please take a second look at the situation I don’t think there was anything wrong. More of people becoming more ridiculous, more demanding and not understand enough. I guess this is it, I had enough just like how you had.
Whatever happens to mutual understanding?
Not gonna harp on it no more, for the outcome turns out to be the same all over. I said my piece and that’d suffice.
Okay enough of emo random rantings this is so not me. It’s GP now and this morning, it struck me so hard: WHEN WILL I EVER BE READY FOR A’LEVEL? I know school barely even started but well, if you get what I mean.
Having to get used to sleep after midnight and waking up at 6 plus in the a.m everyday. Not staying up for nothing anymore but study. Tell me when am I ready? Shit, emo random musings again damn it!
On a lighter note, dearest michy’s big day this saturday so yay! (Y)
P.S been so long since I posted pictures, no?
HELLO 2010.
To sum it up, 2009 has been a nerve-wracking roller coaster ride. From the whole retention drama, ie. getting to know new people, stepping outta comfort zone, accepting differences, bitchy dramamama(okay don’t ask) and major heartbreak. Thanks to friends like FFFF who made school a whole lot better. To the greatest find of the year, Debs: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DEBSIE MEOWMEOW! :D Not forgetting xmm! J2 is definitely gonna be tougher but there’d sure be people to make it easier, I believe.
Not forgetting the good times, clearing promos for one(I mean like I know this is expected of me), recent AWESOME London trip and what else? Idk why but I feel stumped all of a sudden I feel like closing down my blog :(
ANYW I FRICKING LOST MY CAMERA :( I’m uber sad sighs bye!
So what if it hurts me
Not gonna go into the whole dramamama that’s been happening in my life. Don’t get me started on it too, especially when it is 3.08am right now. So yeah, happy cheerful pictures of me and my friends :D
Today was town, twilight new moon(I know this movie was screened damn long ago) and then to vivo to meet up with Michy and two other bridesmaid for the bridesmaid dresses. Kinda miss girly sessions like that with Michy, looking forward to bachelorette’s night!
My life has been relatively mundane like srsly. Not gonna update my wordpress as frequent so yup follow me on twitter or fb status. Till then!
Anyw my blackberry is giving me headache idk when to send it for repair bye!
The late night second hand ticks
Idk why have I been losing sleep. Not blaming the stupid jetlag anymore, it’s just me. Not being able to fall asleep until past 3 or 4am. Need to do something about it soon my bio clock is fricking screwed I swear. Just what have been happening I really wonder. Do I really needa slow down and take a step back or just carry on being like this because nobody finds anything wrong with this, well maybe not nobody that’s an absolute term.
Lost the form to blog alrdy maybe I’d close down all my blogs, from blogger to lj to xanga to wordpress. Even my twitter? Fuck freedom of speech srsly.
When you walked out, said that you’d had enough
Perhaps because I haven’t been there yet and true enough, I don’t exactly know how it’s supposed to feel like and how it’s actually like. This is one of the major stumbling blocks and barriers in my life that I can’t undo it because it created sucha significant impact, and so much differences. So much so that I can’t spell nor express them out clearly. If I say I’m hurt, it’s an understatement.
Gonna end this post abruptly like this because I don’t see how I can carry on with these empty random musing bye.
No how
Life has been rather mundane nowadays. Work and more work. Like I worked 6 days outta the whole week this week. Feverish, bad throat and flu-ey now too sighhh. Time of the month is here I look super cui with the outbreak on my face due to those rioting hormones, not mentioning the extreme moodswing. Ouch my throat hurts save me! ): ): ): Pricking me I’m dyingggggg. Anyw no congrats or whatsoever about promotion, don’t wanna talk about it, period. I really don’t feel good, that’s it.
I believe tmrw will be a better day and my blog is getting increasingly boring and stagnant I’m not updating as much anymore sigh. Off to UK next weekend yay I’m excited, not. What the hell am I thinking. My fever is getting to me ): Bye world! (:
P.S Ruby & Debs, I FINALLY updated!
Bitchy stuffs soon maybe, these mundane boring updates are so unlike me. Payday tmrw yay! Can’t waittttt.
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